Well I am at 11 weeks 4 days now! I had one really good day where I was only mildly nauseous and was able to enjoy a little getaway with my amazing husband! Tomorrow is our 5 year anniversary!!!! On our second anniversary we were already pregnant with our first but just didn't know it yet.
I'm still crazy nauseous some days, and dizziness often goes with the waves of nausea, which is super fun. But my nails look fantastic right now ;) and thankfully I have this week mostly off of work since I was planning to go down with my husband for Ragnar. I decided against going though cause four hour drive each way with windy roads and then bad anxiety cause I suck at camping (I try to be outdoorsy but it does NOT come naturally to me) seemed a little too stressful and I figured I could be more supportive by Not being there stressing out my awesome husband the whole time ;) He really does not expect me to camp because he knows how much I dislike it. My version of camping involves cabins, lots of food, and occasional nature walks. So basically not camping haha. I love being in the mountains, doing short hikes, and having bonfires with food though. So hubs and I are gonna have some good little firepit dinners this summer up the canyon and he will take our son (who basically turns into toddler Rambo) camping without me :) I think it's a great plan. I may join them at some point if I feel like I really want to, but I am trying this new thing where I don't just force myself to do things because I SHOULD like it. I don't have to like everything my family likes. They can camp and I can take a nice long bath and read for 6 hours straight, everybody is happy! I try not to let anxiety get in the way so I had gotten in the habit of just doing everything anyways even if it made me anxious, which isn't a bad thing... but some things I now recognize that I just don't really enjoy and it's ok to not always do those things. I'm not medicated right now, the medication stopped being as effective as my coping methods were when I was pregnant the first time. SO after talking to my doctors I went off meds and started just doing my methods to reduce anxiety. Yoga, writing, talking, reading, mindfulness, and praying. I have to keep up with things otherwise anxiety rears it's ugly head. and it is HARD sometimes. I tried going back on the medication but it didn't help much and I had an ovarian cyst burst when I was trying to adjust and I became an utter mess for a bit. I just didn't feel right on it and had to stop after a month. So I am trying to get better about my coping strategies again to handle pregnancy well. I've only called my husband freaking out a handful of times the past 11 weeks which is kind of actually really good for me during a stressful time. I've only called my doctors twice (just to get recommendations for anti nausea meds which I take every night, and to schedule a regular appointment). So this week I start up yoga to hopefully help with anxiety, blood circulation and the ligament pain I have been having. If i get real lucky it may even help with the exhaustion and heartburn!
I'm still not showing at all (not surprising) so no photos this week. But I did announce on social media this week! I had gotten off work early cause nausea and dizzy spells were making it hard to stand (baby is definitely having a big growth spurt right now!) and I just needed something happy, so I told everyone :) It just feels good not to hide it. I would end up telling people if anything happened this far along anyways. But judging by my symptoms I am currently doing ok. As hard as it is, I still am glad I feel all the symptoms.
